Meeting On-Line, What's more hurtful: Playing games or being blunt honest?

This guy just told me that I was unpleasant and he doesn't like that. So I laughed, I think this guy like the game from a woman who he meets on line, like Hi sweetie, I like you and so forth. Well, I don't do that. I speak through my mind and heart, it goes together..but most of the men use their second head and other women use her head to get this guy. It's like winning a lotto without a ticket? That's rubbish!

There is big difference between" friendly and flirty". I'd be hypocrite if I never tried flirting at all, but I rather flirt with friends in public, not one on one conversation, it might lead to someone a different meaning...still I am respectful to others. I just don't like to hear some men telling me all this bullocks and sweet words just to get into my panties. Hell No! I throw fire and test him how far he can go, one thing I learned..

A real man never gets upset from a lady who is blunt in fact it's an attitude, meaning--not easy to be tempted or be fooled. A fake man calls her many names and ETC because men are egotistical. Most men can't accept of being rejected specially if they think they are powerful, they always think no woman can decline them because I am rich, I am good looking, I have nice body bla and bla. At some point, I have met a lot so far, so I don't take any offense nor get myself into strain.

I admit, I love posting myself in many sites but I never have thought I could have thousands of clicks and admiration, so in return to what they're doing..I rather post a blog and share things to both Ts's and Men who is finding a date, fun and marriage, that's all I know to say Thank You. I would be a liar if I am not looking for a man, but nonetheless I wait for the right one, the best one and the deserving one. For me, a real man would find ways to speak with me about his intentions, not a random " COPY and PASTE" messages to all ladies in that website because I can tell if the content has been sent to many, or just for me. I am completely happy and lucky having a gift of wisdom, that's why I chose Sophia which means " WISDOM".

I enjoy posting images of myself to represent myself as a woman with class and glamor, but most men think I collect men and I am sleeping different men, it's a funny and hilarious judgment I ever had encountered. They just don't know who's behind those images. Me? If I see a guy naked, I never judge he is an asshole because he just shows what he is, rather than being a man no picture in his profile but he is find of collecting. But then I always been neutral, I give them a chance but 1 on 1 basis. What I am trying to divulge is..I admit I have many messages but I choose only one then talk a little bit, if he pass my standards which I like intellectual men, then I focus then let other queues in line, if he happens he lost his chance, then that's the time I give others a chance, I am not like others who chat 10,20,30 at one time? How can you find serious and what love is? I don't see a logic from there, UNLESS your profile is only for fun and sex, then no more questions being asked. No dramas, no words and nothing but a casual flirting or casual sex. But most of the people seem they don't know what the difference between real and sweet? arrogant and pleasant? Anyway, we can't please anybody. This guy quoted me. you are not beautiful and I can find lot of TS who are pleasant and prettier, so I laughed. I don't level myself to other TS anywhere part of the world, I have my own style and I know I have heart and brain, having a + is a part of a bonus package. HAHAHA

So I played a trick. I tried to be pleasant and I met him. That way I can tell him straight on his face what I am trying to do online to men who has idiotic behavior.

This was the scenario...I met this guy in a classy bar in Fiamma, for celebrities and I walked towards him, he was mesmerized and tongue-tied. I started to make a conversation and I can see his face of embarassment. That moment, I know he doesn't meant what he said to me online, he was just pissed-off because I was the first person who speaks blunt, and it was his first time being treated like an asshole. I was smiling and I tried to get his attention, so then I opened up why I am like that online, I gave him a brief and concise explanations, and he said, you are right Sophia. So he asked me these questions: Are you celebrity? I replied why? No because when you walking all here are looking at you, so I said, is that my fault? So I asked back, so why you called me ugly huh? It's just that you made me upset and that's the only way I could hurt you..Me? I never get hurt by that, infact I love it. UNLESS I wasn't sure of myself then I would feel bad..Then lastly, have you studied in UK or US, why? You sounds educated and I can tell your writings and the way you talk now is one person..Ofcourse I am beyond real. Not all people who writes are real, copy and paste or someone is making it for them, so the best way to know a person is face to face or phone call. Emaling and chatting is only an immiediate way of knowing some details or urgent matters, what's the use of mobile phone and airbuses? HAHAHA

In addition, he said, you are awesome woman, you have all men what a man want, So I sarcastically said, Yes I know that's why I am very strict and the only way to meet a real one is to " test" by any means. No wonder a lot people meeting online have deceived and fooled because they reply on " KEYBOARDS FREE CHATS", you can't never find a person real or not by that way. Even couple spending 10-20-30 years still have hidden secrets to each other, how much more two completely strangers? Most of them live by fantasy, they like the thought of dreaming and experiencing beyond their limits, sorry to say I am both Fantasy and a Reality so I am lucky I guess. HAHAHA

So after that little conversations, I was already relax and he was too. We enjoyed the wine and we danced. Now he sees himself how bubbly and sweet woman I am in real world. LESSON: Internet is a machine designed to find and browse your type, but to know the person, you have to meet. Enough tip?

VIEWS:

I would rather have someone that is blunt honest with me, and not lead me on and vice versa. So when I went on a date with him I guess I should have been like: Ew, you're f*cking gross. You're way too freaking hairy, you're fat, and you have the personality of a rock.You need to see a psychiatrist and get your life together, you pathetic jobless *ss. How dare you lie about your age, and represent yourself with a picture that looks nothing like you. And then go back to my car and go home.

But no... I was too nice. I tried to look past his flaws and enjoyed the date as much as I could. Then politely gave him the news that it wasn't going to work out the next day. I told him: "You're not my type, and its not going to work between us" like the nice person I try to be. I guess in order to be nice we have to play games. Am I being more hurtful this way? really!?

I would say playing games most of the people doing in a dating site. However just purely looking at the question I would say honest. Notice I take away the word blunt. There is never an excuse to be hurtful or disrespectful to a person. However there is no point giving someone the impression there is a future in a relationship, when there isn't.

I'm not taking sides in their argument with these guys. However I can see ranting and ramble. Some men were trying to spare his feelings and he was under the impression there was a relationship, when there wasn't! It probably wasn't either one of theirs faults, just one of those examples of how two different points of view can end up with very different results! You can be blunt and honest or you can be blunt, honest, and whatever else... but 'blunt honest' is quite an annoying blend.

I don't wish to hurt others. Normally I'm sure I would have said just what you did. But when I think about it, maybe that is more unkind than helpful. Ordinarily I would fudge a little bit, but if this guy doesn't look like his pics, is really fat, gross and older than he claimed to be, I would feel deceived and annoyed. In such a situation, I might now say, with a calm and honest voice,

"Hey, you really don't look anything like you did in the picture you sent me. That must have been taken years ago. Sorry, but I realize that you are really not my type at all.

"I'm sure you have good qualities, but right now I feel really misled and disappointed.

"I don't want to waste your time or mine this evening, so I think I'll go home now. Have a good night."

And the reason I would say it like that is so he realizes he is either lying to himself, to others, or both -- which is not right.

28th Birthday

When I started blogging two years ago I never thought I would come this far. I did not expect that I would keep on doing this for this long, because I’m such a moody person and I get bored quickly. Nevertheless, I don't really chat people on messengers so I'd rather share in public, and it just feels great. What started as a fun toy to play with has become an integral part of my life that I’m enjoying the most. Through this blog I’ve met some great people, and had some really interesting experiences.

Another year older, another excuse to eat cake! I can't believe I just turned 28 today. I threw ideas back and forth myself for a month. Should I cook an extravagant 6 course meal to my friends or shall I travel in a luxury hotel myself? Should I table my experiments and finally follow directions to bake a cake? Finally I decided that birthdays should also be about giving back to yourself. My 25th birthday was like a " Wedding" I reckoned I spent 8000 USD, sounds crazy huh? It's my first time to be away with family and real friends, so no point of celebrating. So in the spirit of stimulating the economy, I planned an adventurous spending myself with a nice champagne in the hotel room at Ritz-Carlton.

As I've spent hours viewing the moonlight, I didn't realised I was a bit emotional..I have many question to myself, Sophia what do you really want in your life? I pause for a second, then I smirched. Maybe it's the alcohol driving me to frenzied heights..So I conked my head and decided to go for a walk, get some fresh air and take a look at the bar. I was relax so I have the courage to walk by myself. I wore my Burberry wardrobe, Gucci heels with my paired purse, light make-up, curled- hair and pouty lips gloss. I think every woman it's a dream to be complimented and admired, but all I know I have a sophisticated face, HAHAHA! Narcissism!. I walked straight to the bar and sat on a long chair, I lit my cigar whilst waiting for my " blowjob" cock-tail with flaming ferrari. I was a bit cheeky to the bartender though..also there's a guy next to me alone and smiling.

I was having fantastic chit-chat with the guy who happens to be a Filipino so I was enjoying the night. The guy was trying to get my attention but I was a bit snobbish, I guess it's my nature. I go to bars, to drink and enjoy, not to flirt and get laid..Not my cup of tea. But the the guy looks timid so I started to have a conversation and didn't know we were laughing the whole night. We took a walk after the bar and shared some " boring" life.. He walked thru the hotel with me and making sure I get back to my room safely.

When I got up this morning, I tried to remember what I was doing, so someone registered in my memory--Oh the guy at the bar. Hmmm, I smiled and think!..Does this guy thought I was a woman? Geez, I always have this thoughts playing in my mind everytime I am out. I was very bothered, he seems nice and hot, wish I have him in my bed as a present, wink!

Trying to get up and made a coffee, still the guy is in my mind..Would he knocks on my door or give me a ring and see each other again tonight? What would I wear? What should I do? I feel like I'm a teenager. I have to go back to my world. I checked facebook and other sites where I'm on and happy to see friends and family have greeted me on this special day..So much BIG thank you's.

I want to thank all readers, especially those who leave comments in my other sites, and I apologize to them because I can’t find time to keep up with all comments. I wish I had more time. I wish I had more time for comments, more time to read, write, travel, and do many things, but oh… that’s another post.

On a related note, I just turned 28 today Nov. 19th. Now I need a bubble bath and tea. I must be ready for the rest of the day.

Dream Catcher‏

Each of us has their dreams and hopes, so do I. I dream about a family life that will be able to fulfill my life and that is going to be my world. There is nothing worse than loneness and days that are similar to each other that sometimes you don’t realize if it is a new day or not. I want so much to wake up early in the morning with the first sunrise and to awake my beloved man with the aroma of the hot coffee and fresh morning. It is so pleasant to feel the warm embrace and the tender care of a dear and loved person in a difficult moment.

I dream about a family where only love, happiness and sincerity have place. In my dream I see a cozy, warm house where everything is in its place, where laugh of our children is heard, where the smell of the cooked meal is around, the meal I have cooked with all my love for my dear. I am a lively person and I like being around a lot of people. I have a lot of friends and I like communicating with them as I am a communicative person it is easy for me to make new friends. I am reliable person and faithful and I ask the same in return from the people I am with. I like being around people, learning something new from them. I like traveling and I really enjoy when I travel. To get to know new countries, people, culture, what is more interesting? I also go in for sports; go out, like preparing good food, listening to music, going to cinema, swimming. I am an art lover, I like literature, especially the historical one. I like animals a lot, especially cats and dogs.

Even if it seems that I am a happy person and I have everything in this life something misses and this is a reliable and loving man next to me. I am looking for him all around the world and I am sure that he is looking for me as well. I know we will meet and we’ll find the happiness and mutual love. He should be kind-hearted, reliable, with good sense of humor, with a strong character and at the same time he should respect the woman who is next to him. I hope to meet an understanding and well-bred man who will be able to color my days and next to him I will feel useful, loved, and just a wanted woman. Find me and be with me…

Wiiling a change

For me, in this situation where I am now, my antidepressant medications turned on me and at the present time I am not on medication. If someone is on antidepressants, they should stay there until they are told to stop. Medication is something that can help - it took me a long struggle to get to that realization because I hate any type of drugs - but they have a place. For me, Remeron was what cleared my head to a certain degree, allowed me to get some sleep, pulled me out of the depression to a point that I could see a few things. It did not stop the destructive behavior though.

Willing a change - making the decision that you want to win over this illness is the first step. Everyone here on this list has made that decision in some sort of way or they would not be here. That is willing a change.

Willing a change - making a decision to take your antidepressant medication in order to fight this depression / illness is willing a change to a certain degree.

Willing a change - is getting up in the morning - whether it be to go to work or walk around the house is fighting this illness.

Willing a change - is taking the tools that the professionals give us and using them. If you are on antidepressant medication - taking them. If you are in counseling - going. If you need help that day - reaching out.

Willing a change - is reaching out and deciding that things are not good and things need to change, that you want to fight. No matter what degree you do this if you make any effort you are working towards getting better and beating this illness - that is willing a change.

For me, the turning point was finding my true God and accepting His forgiveness for the horrible things that I had done and developing a desire to change my behavior and thus change my outlook on things. Taking a look at the people around me and discovering that change is possible, taking a good look at myself and discovering that change is possible.

Is this willing a change? No, this is consciously making a decision to turn my life around and fight what is wrong with me. Does that mean that there are not days that I still do things that are destructive? No, it means that the things that I do are less destructive. Instead of doing things that I did in the past, when that desire comes over me, I go and talk to someone. Instead of going back to the past sins/compulsions, I tell not only God but my friend and in telling them, it puts it out on the table and makes the compulsion come into the light where I can see it for what it really is - wrong. It is something that will send me back into the darkness that I am daily struggling to stay out of. It is something that I want to beat.
Checking your thinking. I check my thinking each and every minute. I almost took on a case that could have sent me back to where I used to be. I talked it out with honesty. I was rationalizing that there were failsafes in place and things would be okay. But my husband was right - even with the failsafes, it could happen in a moment of weakness. I do not want to take that chance. This is willing a change.

This is not easy and there have been times that it has beaten me down and I thought that I was not going to make it. Going back, and not caring, looked really good. I pulled out some things and read them - this is willing a change.

To me, willing a change is doing things that are good for you in the long run and fighting this illness. Not giving up is willing a change.

Broken Dreams

Darling, I take no exception to myself. All you say is right and how can I feel anything but shame. I know I have done wrong but I have been unable to do anything else. Baby, I am sick, I am mentally and physically sick. I am in constant pain twenty-four hours of the day. Trying to think is a definite effort for me. I love you baby, there is, nor can there be anyone but you. The Hell on earth I have gone through is unbelieveable. I see your face in every succession of hotels and restaurants. I can do nothing, I cannot think except of you.

I'm a sick, lonely woman, baby. Much of it if not all of it is my responsibility. I simply cannot exist without you. The things? Hell darling, if you can't solve it we might as well forget them. If all the concrete results of your life and my life mean so little to you they can mean no more to me. Let them go. I have a little plans anyway for us. Damn! Darling! All the hard days we lived together and now that we're economically sound you slip it off. Sure, if you pursue what we have started you've got me but I still think we can live and find happiness, or content. I'm tired and I'm sick and I love you, darling. Each thing I do is wrong but it was never that way together. You've had Hell? Whatever went before I am probably more responsible than anyone concerned. Yours has been a nowhere terms whereas mine has been something it is impossible to live with. A load? Sure, but no worse than the current problem, and, it might save me. I probably won't do any better today than I did last night. I'll try however. You have the preponderance of right on your side. I do not question that. I feel that I have some things on my side. From the time were together , I blew completely to Hell.

The things I did you knew I'd do when I was without your controlling influence. There is a certain amount of brilliance but damned little basic intelligence. The things I do I don't want to do. I only find it impossible to do any other way. You want surety and secureness? There it is. You handle it. I'm sorry Darling, I have too many memories and all of them beautiful. I remember the touch and the feel of you. I remember the passion you had for cokes and mysteries and the look of you coming down the street to meet me. I remember so much. I wish to God I could forget it. You are the only man I have ever loved -- there have been others, yes, but you are the only one who has been of any importance to me. God Almighty! Can't you find any kindliness in your heart for me? I need you. We had been perfect natural sweet loving couple together ( a team ). There is what you are talking about. Oh Darling, let's have our home and our dreams and our quietness and the laughter over small things. Let's go back and do all that we had planned. I have not had a good meal for over four days. It hasn't made a great deal of difference. I'm still in pain and I'm still very lonely for you. I think I know what it is and in my own stupid way I'd like to do it. I would be here waiting for you patiently. The days have been tough for you. My sorrow does not replace. Yours will be the last name I speak. I love you.

Missing you so badly!

A fairy tale‏

Once upon a time, there was this beautiful, Young Girl who lived in a
city called Life.

Unfortunately, this girl had not been born perfect and this imperfection
worried and disturbed her. Apart from this, the Young Girl was kind to
her family and her friends. She worked hard at her job and was mostly
happy, but never felt she could be truly happy because of her physical
imperfection. The fact was, this girl was really quite beautiful and
nobody except her ever noticed that there was anything wrong about her
at all. In spite of this, and in spite of all the admiration she would
receive, the Young Girl felt she needed to "change". She felt she HAD to
change, so that she could find what she really yearned for - True
Happiness.

What the girl did not realize, was that every change comes at a cost.

The need to change became so strong and the girl became so impatient,
that she made a decision to stop her work and to try something
completely different. The Young Girl had heard that there were certain
paths through the City of Life, which looked incredibly interesting and
absolutely wonderful. She had heard that some of these paths were full
of mystery and danger, but also held the chance of great opportunity.
Innocent of the depth of the dangers that lurked behind the beauty and
mystery of these paths, the Young Girl made a decision - she was going
to go down the Central Path.

For the next six years, the Young Girl journeying down the Central Path.
The hardships she had to endure were more than she could ever have
imagined - she had become blinded by the glitter, the false fame, the
false admiration and the false love. She had no idea that all the
glitter was really of no substance - all the words, all the promises she
had heard from the Admirers were worth nothing - they all belonged to
the illusion, for which the Central Path had become famous. Although the
Young Girl had set out to change her life and ultimately to find True
Happiness, all she had achieved was to change herself in such a way,
that she could cope with the lies, the cheating and the deception she
was witnessing. The Young Girl had become a Woman - no longer the
innocent, beautiful, compassionate Young Girl, but a Woman. A Woman who
no longer shone with the beauty. No longer showed the compassion. Due to
the pain and suffering, the Young Girl had lost the ability to discern
truth from deceit .

With her feelings so blunted, what the Young Girl had failed to notice
was that one of the "Admirers" was not really just an admirer - he was
"different" - he had been sent on a mission.

The Man was patient. Despite his patience, if the Woman felt or was
reminded of the past pain inflicted upon her from her Admirers, she
would become extremely ugly. The ugliness had always been so shocking to
the Admirers, that were then motivated to try more and more lies and
tricks to change the ugliness back into the Young Girl - and so get what
they wanted.
Unfortunately, by the time the Man had found her, the Young Girl had
almost ceased to exist - the ugly Woman had almost completely taken her
over. The Man was different. The difference was that he was genuine. He
could also see the beauty of the Young Girl hidden behind the ugly shell
of the Woman. The Man somehow knew that he had been sent, he knew it was
his destiny to free the spirit of the Young Girl from this ugliness. He
knew that only then, could the girl find True Happiness. However, in
spite of the Man's love, the Woman fought and fought to retain her hold
on the Young Girl. The closer the Man got, the uglier the Woman would
become until one day, something happened.

The Man suddenly sensed that it was not his destiny to be with the Young
Girl always - it was only his destiny to free the spirit of the Young
Girl. Something "higher", powerful, something pure and Good was to take
over the Man's role in guiding the Young Girl towards her True
Happiness. However, when the Man's heart was led away from the Young
Girl, he did not recognize that he had achieved what he was sent to do -
he was just deeply upset, as he thought he had failed the Young Girl,
whom he had loved. The Young Girl too was extremely sad. She found
herself in a state of shock and disbelief. But something had changed -
the Young Girl had broken the power of the ugly Woman, who had gradually
managed to take control of her over the years. The Young Girl became
truly beautiful again - again, she was compassionate and understanding.
She tried to contact the Man, but he could not reply - he was not
allowed to reply until the Higher Something permitted. The Man yearned
for the love he had once had in his heart, but he could not feel the
same love - in stead, he found Understanding. The Understanding told the
Man that he had to let the Young Girl go, so that her freed spirit could
continue her journey to True Happiness and finally meet the person she
would spend her life with. He understood, that he must let the Young
Girl start again and, using the Good that the Higher Something had given
back to her, she was to journey through the City of Life with only the
Good to guide her.

Ultimately, the Man knew that the Higher Something was right and that
the only way the Young Girl could reach True Happiness in the City of
Life, was if she herself used the Good within her and began to build her
own future. The Man had to accept his destiny - he had to let the Young
Girl go, but prayed hard to the Higher Something that it would remain
with the Young Girl, until she had reached True Happiness.

At first, the Young Girl was confused and, like the Man, deeply sad. But
just as the Man had began to understand, the Young Girl also began to
understand. So she set out again along the journey through the City of
Life, knowing that she had to rely on the Good and upon herself to guide
her towards True Happiness. She knew the journey would not be easy, but
also knew that this fact would make True Happiness even more wonderful,
when she had reached it - by being led by the power of the Good.

Men infidelity - Why do women stick to men who stray?‏

In public eyes, she’s look pity and suffering. Everyone knew his man had
been cheated on her. But, why until now she’s still standing by his
side? In relationship, accepting your partner for who he is, are good
thing but if his behaviours are more into flirting and affairs, would
you continue stand by him? Maybe it’s okay to give him second chance if
he regret for what he did and asking for forgiveness. But, if he takes
advantage of your generosity, is it worthy to get heart broken for
another infidelity? Some girls, so patient in maintaining their
relationship to prove how good they are in keeping their guy stay
beside them. No matter how bad things get, they just can’t let their
cheating guys go.

The question is, why? Does it for life warranty, financial support,
dignity, selfishness or love? No matter how much we guess the reason
why and feel sorry for them, for sure, these girls have their own point
of view regarding their man. However, staying with man who continuously
betrays you in long-term is not healthy. It may causes to depression,
boredom or mentality problem if you keep pushing yourself into the
unfair relationship. Why annihilate your future and changes in finding
a better man just for one cheating guy? So, now, should you forgive him
or, walk away, fast?

Keep staying or let go?

Sometimes,women in love keep the other eyes close when things goes wrong with
their man to avoid more troubles in future. They believe that men have
their transition time at certain ages and everything going to be
alright when that phases elapse. But, we all know, there’s no such
thing! Men who stray shouldn’t eligible for forgiveness. But, every
woman has their own reasons to stay and maintain their relationship.
Married women who have children are more compromise to protect her
family and normally they will give more than one chances for their
partner to change their bad behaviors. They choose to stay and put
extra effort to solve problems for the sake of the kids and themselves.

Actually trying to work things out is a good reason because if they can survives
and start a new life as a couple, it will give a good example to the
kids to stick into commitment. Some women prefer to work things out
because they knew problems wouldn’t solve if they run away and afraid
to face the truth. I believes certain mistakes (continues cheater or
physically or mentality castigation) don’t deserves any forgiveness,
but all humans make mistakes. To work things out and gives the second
chance might not bring into sudden alteration, but, at least, you
already give a try. It’s better than do nothing, right? How about you?

Never ending infidelity or last battle?

“If he’s unfaithful once, no wonder if he’ll do it again!” Words of advice
we always heard when man betrayed his wife. Does it mean we can’t trust
our partner anymore? Well, we all know how painful we are when our man
betrayed our trust and our love and having an affair behind our back.
But nothing is more hurtful than catching him in the act! If you, would
you forgive him? You knew your men cheated on you and you bring that
issue into discussions - he asking for your forgiveness – and you give
him second chance to prove his loyalty and desirability to go on with
the relationship. That’s okay! At least, you’re not watching that
“tiger show” in front of your eyes. Speechless, shocking or slapping
him might be the answers, but to forgive or give him another chance is
far more.

Does it make senses to forgive if he dares to do it vividly? Why protect
someone who doesn’t respect you? It’s not worthy and he doesn’t deserve
you or your love. If you think to take him back because the memories -
about the time you’ve been spend together and how good he is in the
past or other reasons doesn’t give any big point for you to pretend
nothing ever happens. When considering whether to forgive him, ask
yourself, “What’s in it for me?” Remember, you deserves better. No
matter how good he is in the beginning of the relationship, don’t
regret or blame yourself for leaving him because of his infidelity, but
think about your future.

Is there any hope?

Some women give all their heart and soul to their man with hope they’ll
appreciate them forever. So, when their man being unfaithful, it’s hard
for them to forgive because it leave deep wound in their heart.
However, when it comes to love, women become weak as they believe that
their true love will make him change. But, does reformed rakes really
exists in reality? Are you sure your man will change if you give him
every chance he needs? You can’t denied how much you love him when
you’re ready to forgive him for cheating and give him another go to
correct his mistakes – on the proviso no more infidelity. He confess
for his sin and seemed so devastated at the thought of losing you and
said that you’re the one in his life – and you believes him just like
that.

You believe that by giving him another chance and show him your love will
make everything alright but it can be an unrealistic hope. He regrets
and promises not to cheat on you anymore, but how long he will stand up
for his words? He’s already gains your trust but it doesn’t mean he’ll
chance forever. No wonder if he’ll do it again – as people says,
“leopard never changes it spots”. So, if you find him did wrong again
behind your back, don’t hesitate to leave him and never ever take any
excuses from him. I believe everyone deserves one more chance, but if
he abuses your trust yet again, nothing much we can do about it other
than let him go….freely! Good for your happiness and for better future.

Want to maintain and keep the relationship alive?

It’s sad to know that your partner never put an effort to change their
behaviour, but it doesn’t mean you despair or losing your hope and walk
away just like that. If you really think that the relationship can be
salvaged and you believe you both can work on it, keep going. Also make
sure he wants the same things and ready to make commitment. Plan
something which will give benefits for both of you but don’t play the
victim – set out some ground rules. Maybe you both can talk with a
psychologist or counselor to learn new skills together. Besides, by
giving each other a second chance will teaches you both to be more
responsibility to the relationship. A relationship which is reformed
from failure is stronger and the experience will give you strength to
face other obstacles in future.

You might think it is dangerous by taking risk and put yourself into
unreliable hopes because at the end, it might cause you to lose
yourself, which could be more heartbreaking and lonely in the long run.
But, standing up for yourself is more important than standing by him.
One day you’ll realize nothing to regret in life when we know what we’d
done make us a better person tomorrow and in future.

Breaking the promises?

It’s easy to make promises but not everyone can do exactly as they had
promised to. So, if your man says he’s going to put hundred percent
efforts to overhaul himself, take a deep look and remember one
important thing: Actions speak louder than words! Nothing will changes
if he just makes promises, do his part and follow you to counseling
room yet doesn’t applied it into his daily routine. Don’t be deceived
by his words but pay attention to his actions. Use your instinct
wisely, you’ll know if he’s committed or not and don’t let him take
advantage on your kindness.

Don’t let love cover your eyesight and your assessment, be rational; loving
him doesn’t mean you have to be in a relationship with him, right? Show
him your compassion, sympathy and another chance, but don’t forget to
give the same opportunity to yourself. If he really means it, he should
show it, sincerely. And it’s not only you who makes the move but he
should show his earnest too. Remember, it takes two. It won’t work if
he doesn’t put fresh energy into relationship and let you handle the
paddle.

Facing the future – alone or together?

We can’t expect what might happen in future but while you both facing
crucial time, it’s important to give support to each other. So, when he
takes steps to change, you should also take a look at your own input.
Don’t assume everything going to be alright if he work on it and you’re
already free from take any responsibilities just because he the one who
did wrong. Now, he needs you more than anyone else, and you should be
there to gives support and together nurture the relationship if it’s
going to survive. If he regrets for his mistakes and you already
forgive him, do something that could remind you both to the time when
the world is yours, the wonderful moment you’ve been through together
and forget all the bad things. You can go for a date or having a
romantic dinner together to boost confidence in each other.

It might sound ridiculous giving him too much attention despite he betray
you, but you’ve been come such a long way, being together again after
went through many obstacles, it’s worth your time and this might
brought you both closer than ever. Actually by giving him a chance is
good, because it also open your eyes that you both should wake-up from
a long sleep and start to refresh your relationship. What I’m trying to
say here is, never ever take your partner for granted and remember, no
matter how long you’ve been together or how close you both are, don’t
neglected to nurture the relationship from time to time and don’t
forget to make it together.

What is a real man to me?‏

Apparently, for some bizarre reason, manhood doesn't come automatically for males. Some guys seem to spend their entire lives trying to "prove their manhood" - by hunting, playing sports, driving fast...and, unfortunately, by having sex. It seems rather strange to us women that guys think having sex proves you're a man. To us, it just proves that you've reached puberty. And we don't really consider that, in itself, to be any great accomplishment. Becoming a man is a much more complicated process.

The funny thing is, even in this day in age, most guys want to marry a girl who respects her sexuality. A guy doesn't like the idea of his future wife in the back-seat with someone else, or of her being the subject of a sexual conquest story in the locker room. They'll brag about girls like that, but they won't marry them. They want to marry a girl, whether she's never "done it" or done it and regretted it, who recognizes that sex speaks the language of forever, committed love...someone like me.

But why would I want to marry someone like that...someone who wants to marry a virgin, but spends his dating years robbing other girls of their virginity so that he can prove his manhood? He's not a "real man" in my eyes - he's a selfish, immature boy driven by insecurity, not love. And I'm not interested.
I want more from him. I want him to respect his sexuality as much as I respect mine. I want him to be a real, confident man, not a wimp who has to use women to feed his insecurity. A guy like that couldn't use all of those women, and then suddenly love me. He may be "good" in bed, but he's no good at loving.

I want him to learn to really love. Learning to love is learning to put the other first. A guy who messes around outside of marriage isn't putting the good of the other first. He's using a girl...speaking the "body language" of permanent commitment when the relationship isn't permanent. He's putting the girl at risk of pregnancy. And he's putting himself at risk for some nasty diseases...diseases he can then later give his wife. That's not making love. A real man loves women - all women - and wants what's best for them. And he doesn't let his desires control his actions. He controls his desires instead.
I want him to develop self-control. That's important to me. I don't want to marry a man who can't control himself. Men like that make lousy husbands. A guy who isn't used to saying "no" to sex isn't going to be any better at 40 than he was at 18. I've seen women who worry every time their husbands hire an attractive secretary. I don't want that. What kind of marriage could I have with someone I couldn't even trust on a business trip?

In the short run, I'm sure there aren't too many rewards for a guy living this way. Society tells us that you're missing out on our "sexual peak." Their silence during locker room bragging sessions can seem deafening. You may have even heard from the girls he dates that something must be "wrong" with him because he won't take them to bed. Deep down, he must know that having sex won't prove you're a man. It's just irritating to no one else seems to know it, isn't it?

But someone else does know it. I know it. And in the end, I'm the only someone who matters. And no, I'm not as narrow-minded as those guys who say they'll only marry a virgin. Society isn't too supportive of virginity, especially male virginity. I can forgive mistakes in his past. But I'm interested in his future, starting now. When I meet him, I want him to be a man who has made a conscious decision to wait...out of love for our future family and commitment to marriage. And I want him to be a real man, who's developed the control, maturity and unselfishness that waiting brings. They may not be popular traits in the locker room, but they're popular with me. They'll make you a better husband, and a better father. To me, that's sexy.
I've abstained from sex all these time, and it hasn't been for the lack of offers. I've had plenty of opportunities, and saying "no" hasn't always been easy. I'm sure it's not always easy for them, either. But it will make our marriage so much stronger. Sex will be our gift to each other, our exclusive "language." It'll belong to us, not "us and everyone else we ever dated."
I promise he won't regret it.

Stupid Is As Stupid Does

I am hereby going to out myself as being an insensitive bitch! Simply because I feel no sympathy for the "unfortunate" among us. How many stories about well-meaning women (or men, for that matter) who have placed themselves at the mercy of morons with anger issues (and worse) have I heard over the years?

Quite a lot.

What do I think about it? Not much, quite frankly. I think that in this life, one way or another, we all get what we deserve. If you invite an abuser into your life in whatever chippy glee of horny ignorance that may or may not possess you in a weak moment, you get what's coming to you. No more, no less.

There is physical abuse and there is mental abuse. There is also emotional abuse. Where the fuck do you think you are? Disneyland? This is a big and bad world. There are all sorts of bad people out there - and they are just waiting for somebody to expose a weak spot so that they can get to them and feed their hunger for real and actual - not mock - suffering.

Wise up! There is no such thing as EVIL.

There is only stupid.

There are damaged people out there who seek to ritualize and recreate physical and psychological circumstances by proxy. They are predators. Vicious, nasty, and utterly unable to empathise with anything but their own twisted and tormented soul. They feel no pity. They have no care. And there are more of them out and about for each passing year of this insane insect colony lifestyle we call "civilization".

Do you REALLY think the the police or "the authorities" will help you? Think again. Only YOU can help you - and the only help you can give yourself is that of becoming smart. Learn how to fight. Learn how to say NO! No dammit! NO! Fuckin' hell! Wise up! Go somewhere and grow a fucking brain!

Learn how to take responsibility.

Stop f*cking whining and look at what you can do differently. Then, when you learn something, use it. Stand up for yourself. Get a fucking grip. Or, if you don't, can't, won't... get used to the idea of being food for predators. That's all.

Mentoring and Lesson

After reading, I had to pause and think about how I perceive mentoring. I had to think back to all the people I've known in the lifestyle over the years. I've known a few that have mentored and/or been mentored. But I've often wondered something.

Frequently, when you hear people talk about "Mentoring", what they are describing is more a way to lure someone into a state of co-dependence; A Dom taking advantage of a submissive seeking exposure to the lifestyle. Stylistically, it's more akin to isolating a person away from other opinions or experiences. It's more like a means to make a move on an unsuspecting and/or vulnerable person in their care. This type of "Mentoring" has no similarities to what sincere Mentoring is. It uses the emotional attachment as a manipulating force. It's less about education and exposure, more about brainwashing.

Ironically, a Dominant working with a submissive is the most common pairing of mentoring I've heard. Mind you, I can only count on two hands how many people I personally know that have been involved in some form of mentorship, but all the ones that have had good things said about them have followed the same general principles.

1. A good Mentor works with others having no ulterior motives beyond offering their experience to another. Their primary goal is to work with the mentee and navigate their path for full possibilities. There is not an expectation of gaining some advantage or anything outside of the exchange of knowledge.
2. As a Mentor, it's not about the sex. While serving as a Mentor, they never engaged in physical sex with their mentee. Their focus was on the education and exposure. Guiding and leading.
3. They had defined goals with each other. If something arose that was ambiguous, it was evaluated and discussed. 'Why something might have caused an adverse reaction' that kind of thing.
4. There was a specific duration of time to the mentorship agreement. It wasn't an endless uncharted amble. It had a start point and an end point, clearly defined.

Now, the few alpha sub/switch mentorings of a submissive I've heard discussed have been somewhere along the same lines as above. The only thing substantially different that I can think of would be that these tended to be relationships where someone with previous exposure, but newer to the specific community, was being instructed on what to expect. Obviously, since I don't have a broad sample to rely upon, my full understanding is somewhat limited.

First time

I'm a firm believer a person that knows everything about everything is both an idiot and dangerous.

That's why I believe people should be encouraged to ask questions no matter how many times the question has be explored by others before. Sure, it get annoying when you hear the same questions over and over again. What's more annoying than replying to a redundant question? To me, having to intervene when something awful happens that could have been prevented if someone asked some questions before acting on limited knowledge.

While some people may have argued a particular topic to the point of being a wet noodle, that doesn't mean that the person asking has. Or perhaps the person asking the question knows there are people listening in that haven't expressed their opinions.

There is always a first time for someone. For some it was a while ago. For others it was yesterday. Even the most experienced of us was once a Rookie or wanted to try something new. The ability to perfect a skill comes from practice and information. Practice with no information will eventually lead to something tragic.

A Vivid Nightmare/Dream: the Convention

I am glad that i spent the night over at Danny's gay friend last night - even if he is out of town - because I can write this while it is fresh in my mind. This was what I dreamed:

I was ushered into a room by a figure dressed in a white hooded robe. I could not tell if the figure was a young or an old male, even when it spoke to me and told me to get undressed.

As I undressed I could hear someone talking over loudspeakers saying things like "Registered is now at 20,000" "There are cunts to be used in the Grand Ballroom" "Masters, please bring your Rape-toys to examination room before allowing them to..." Registration is now at 25,000"

When I was the figure in White reached out a hand and began running a hard, heavy hand on my cunt and then said, "There are only 2,000 Bald men here so far. You only have to take each and every one of their raping you with their sacred cocks 25 times, and then you can leave".

Then I woke up.

OMG, now I am so horny.

Love As Support, Caring and Emotional Intimacy‏

LOVE

Love does not result from just fun times together. In many relationships we spend too much time on activities which sometimes can be an excuse to avoid a deeper caring intimacy, which once experienced is much more meaningful.

God tells us to love others as ourselves. Self love is not for our ego but ability to more fully share a growing love with others. Each person is very special and unique, yet society and often the church discourages inner growth of our unique selves, melting us into the crowd. Result can be boring unfulfilled life. You can develop your own unique loving self - An exciting rewarding experience!

Development of Love

You can not appreciate what you do not recognize. Be receptive to love. With open arms allow love to flow in and out. With closed arms you hold only yourself.

Perfect love gives and does not expect. When love expects pain results since our human response to love will be imperfect.

Love is patient. Each person has a different capacity to love based on their experiences. Love risks rejection - but love is worth giving even if it is rejected.

Love is spontaneous, shows emotion, can cry, laugh, hug; love is a great human emotion.

As a loving person you do not need to be perfect -- just human. Recognize the needs of others and admit your own need to love and be loved. Accept others as real people even if you do not like some of their actions.

Love is not jealous but desires the best for the other even if that hurts us.

To Love is to be real, to be human and to be fully alive !!

Levels of Love

Casual Love for all

Love every inner person. Separate bad actions from love for persons soul/ self. Can hate murder yet love the murderer. Often bad acts are the result of a unfulfilled inner need.

Singleness
Singleness often results in maximum growth in love since it results in flexibility to develop, mature and share with a number of people. Yet must be willing to narrow in on a few most meaningful relationships at any given time. The quality of friendships is more important than quantity. The goal is lifetime deep, meaningful intimate friendships yet without jealousy or the need to prove our love by becoming married unless really wish to marry.

Marriage
An ideal marriage can be the most wonderful relationship yet seldom is as fulfilling as it is a fantasy. Too often couples marry and instead of becoming one, each become only 1/2 a whole person. Love alone is not reason to marry. In marriage, each should maintain own human identity combined with unity of purpose for richness of life together - yet still sharing casual love (which may or may not mean intimacy depending on couples agreements).

Other Brief Love Thoughts
Love and intimacy is a deep human hunger and necessity God gave us for our best gift to one another. Without love we are often very lonely in life.

Maximum love is a learned skill, a growing process in a relationship of Trust, honesty, respect and kindness.

Trust is knowing another will not hurt or reject me if I reveal my deepest weakness but will try and be actively involved in my growth.

Love invites, encourages, smiles, makes each other feel good about ourselves. We can go out in the world and do what we wish and have the courage to be all we can be. Results in accepting ourselves when we fail, knowing we are still loved which brings us the self confidence to try again and not be overcome with fear of failure.

Emotional responsibility is the loving response to the vulnerability in openness to each other. The more one is able to say "Hey, this is me, I don't have to hide or pretend", the more there is true love.

Sometimes we reject a loving friends advice because we don't want to hear the truth. With love we can still be friends and discuss the concerns of life and share each others visions from their perspective and respect their views. We must listen with an open mind. We must desire honesty in others and stop the games we often play.

Love is sharing when passing through pain to deeper understanding. When we get to a hard place in life, full of pain, we want to go around it not through it. We want to ignore the problem. The energy we want to spend on escaping can instead be used on revelation -going through the problem finding solutions and becoming stronger because of the tough times of life.

A loving person is sensitive and looks for wounded hearts around us. A hurting person often needs a loving arm around the shoulder, or a sincere hug and "How are you really? Want to talk ? A hand held out, an invitation to join in, into love, into a loving group, into sharing, into involvement and growth.

In a loving friendship giving sexual pleasure can be a wonderful expression of love. In true love sex is not selfish, which is lust. Loving sex is when both are emotionally ready to share this deepest and most fulfilling level of intimacy and is not just physical passion.

In love we must each still maintain our own unique individuality. Loves does not control or dominate a person but seeks what's best for the other.

There is no such thing as perfect love because we are all imperfect people. We will not be perfect, we can only work on growth.

Only those who feel good about themselves can experience the best of love. We should help each other build confidence in our self image. When we are down on ourselves what we see in the mirror becomes distorted - we are unable to see the beauty in ourselves that is truly there.

The best gift we can share with another is the experience of love, in a friendship, casual relationship or in marriage. When we give love we usually receive even more love . Love doesn't need to be saved, it is like knowledge, the more we share the more we get by interacting with others. When we give love away, we don't have less but more.

A Freaky Woman's Dream

Last night we met in my dreams. You picked me up at the Airport and we had our longing embraces with a tender kiss that warmed our sensual being. It was such a tender moment that people in the airport applauded our first moment together. The tender kiss was far from enough to satisfy the fire that burned inside. On the way to the Car, we walked with our arms wrapped around each other at the waist. Gently squeezing each other and wanting to go lower. Once we reached the car, we climbed into the back seat and stared into each others eyes and we drew even closer embracing in a long and passionate kiss...my hand roamed over your breasts, down to your stomach caressing you.
The Kiss turned to a raging fire burning out of control as my hand went lower and gently massaged your burning rod of passion now fully extended. I could feel your wetness and it drew my mouth down so I could taste its sweetness. I licked at every divine morsel and then put my lips on the end of your shaft then sliding my lips over the tip and further down onto your shaft and massaged the base with my tongue and then as I take my lips back up your shaft. I feel and hear you moan with delight as the sensual skin on your shaft grows ever hotter. I want to increase the sensual pleasure you are feeling. I take my finger down and feel the wetness of you now hot big cock. My passion builds. I gently insert my finger and begin to massage it's walls and I can feel your cock pulsing through the walls of your ass. A slight increase in pressure and as I suck the tip of your burning rod I stroke its base. You are ready to explode and I softly lick the tip of your beautiful cock as I massage your ass pushing my finger in and out and then I go down on your cock and suck on it until you explode in my mouth and I swallow every last drop of your delicious nectar wanting more and so ended our first kiss...I awaken and I realize that it was only a dream and I started to cry.

LOVE‏?

Love – something that is almost delusional. What is love, really?

If love is passion - love at first sight, then love cannot last for long – because human nature is not designed to carry on passionate love forever. After the hot and steamy initial period, life returns to its routine and the brain returns to its normal state of mind. Each person no longer goes out of his way to impress, instead returns to his comfortable shell. Love making transitions from the consequence of passion to satisfaction of sexual needs. It is only understandable, for who is able to retain those butterfly feelings in one’s stomach, the anxiety of uncertainty, and constant displays of one’s best behaviors ceaselessly? If passionate love is what one desires, one can live his life moving from one lover to the next once the passion has faded. Such type of love is perhaps designated only for artists with continuous craves for passion.

The idea of short-lived love with one partner is perhaps disheartening. What is love then, if love is to last forever? Ah, thus the notion of love as companionship and compatibility. He makes you laugh. You can carry a conversation together. You share similar values toward money, religion, children, life style, etc. Love means understanding, compromising, and sharing responsibilities. Love means settling and withstanding – as that is the only way for one to be able to love another forever. This type of love does not make literature, because it is not romantic. It is realistic.

This type of love is not at all too difficult to find. The majority of people with similar education background who live in the same society tend to share similar outlooks toward the everyday important mundane. Certainly, there are differences because each person grows up in a different family with slightly different values and customs. However, these differences are those which call for understanding, compromising, and withstanding. Next time, take a look at your workmates, your neighbors, or your schoolmates, and count those whom you absolutely cannot put up with? Chances are that there are only few.

You are told to marry for love. You are told to find your other half. But really, does there exist the one person who completes you? If that person is someone whom you love passionately, your love won’t last forever. If that person is someone who is compatible with you, there are tens of others who can also be your companion.

Perhaps marriage is not about finding your perfect one. It is about your mental state. Once you are ready to settle down and compromise, you are ready for marriage. The journey of finding someone to get married to is not the hard part. The workload really resides in changing your state of mind.

Sex Education For the Real World

You know, when we're just plain horny -- rather than interested in really sharing sex, emotionally and physically, with another person -- the best choice to make is to masturbate. That's not just best for us, it's also better for any potential partners: if often isn't so great to be someone's personal petrie dish.

Masturbation is all about satiating our sole sexual desires, for when we're just sexually hungry and not interested in emotional and physical intimacy with someone else in particular. It's also the best kind of sex to have when we're not 100% certain that we're ready for all that partnered sex entails, or for when we haven't resolved any conflicts we might have in having partnered sex. And it's certainly something that tends to result in people coming to partnered sex with better readiness than they might otherwise: the very best first sex partner for everyone is ourselves.

You're also going to need a lot more going on to be ready for sex with someone else than sexual desire. You'll need to be ready to assert yourself, to communicate and negotiate, even when it's awkward or emotionally uncomfortable and you're feeling really vulnerable. You'll need to be ready to manage your expectations, and be just as prepared for pleasure and closeness as you are for emotional distance and things not feeling good for you at all. You'll need to be ready to get and manage sexual healthcare, and that can be tricky when you're very young without the support -- or knowledge -- of any adults. You're going to want to have a pretty good bunch of sexuality and sexual health information under your belt before taking your sexuality on the road. In short, healthy partnered sex that's beneficial for us usually only happens with a whole lot more in place than the want to have sex because we feel that desire.

Ultimately, the best sexual choices to make are the ones that fit YOUR feelings, ethics and values, wants and needs best -- not those things for anyone who isn't you or the person you may be having sex with. By all means, it can be really hard when those choices are in sharp conflict with your family's values (and sex is always healthier when it doesn't have to be hidden or secret), but in the long term, for you, what's most important is that YOU are the one who is totally okay with and can stand behind your choices, even to your parents.

So, I'd suggest that you start with being your own sex partner, with masturbation. Not only is that something that'll give you a good start on getting to know and understand your own sexuality and sexual likes and dislikes -- which are important things to be able to share with a partner, but also important for the sexuality that's just yours and not about anyone else at all -- it'll also help quiet that strong desire you're feeling right now. That's important, because we do need a level head when we're making these choices, so if we're all kooky-lusty-crazy when we're trying to make them, it can really cloud our judgement. More to the point, you're much more likely to be able to learn to satisfy yourself more wickly than it usually happens with a new sexual partner, so choosing to try sex with a partner because we're looking to get off isn't usually the greatest choice, for a lot of reasons, but that includes because sex with a new partner is often much more clumsy and less physically satisfying than it is with ourselves or a partner we have spent a lot of time with, or had sex with, over time.

In the meantime, you can start your own sexual education by looking into some information that will inform your choices, and take all the time you need to figure out if sex with someone else is really what you want, now or later, and really right for you, by your own standards, not those of your parents or anyone else.

8 tips to help you strip for your lover

First things first, you have to have music. Our bodies naturally want to move and sway with the help of music. So pick up some seductive, yet slow music and turn it up! You want to pick something with a slower tempo and practice with the rhythm to get a grove for taking your clothes off to the beat of the music. You are not in a race; you don’t want something too fast that would defeat the purpose. Slow down – nice and easy!

# For the outer layer of clothing, pick something that you would wear on a daily basis. No not your sweats, something that you would wear to the office or dinner. This layer does not have to be “skimpy”, save that for the next layer!
# Pick some lingerie that you are comfortable in. You must feel good about yourself or your strip tees act will not go as well as planned! You want to feel sexy, try out the garter belt and stockings, it really adds to the show!
# Strut out of the bathroom and glide over to the music and press play. Dim the lights if possible – helps set the mood. Let your hair down and run your fingers through it or whip it around a bit.
# Unbutton a couple of buttons on your shirt while dancing around. Flash your lover with a sneak peak of the underneath and then close your blouse again. Begin slowly unbuttoning your blouse and then give it a toss and drape it across your lover.
# Turn around and dance shaking your bottom, then give a sneak peak by raising your skirt. Turn back around and lose the skirt. Dance for a bit allowing your lover to enjoy your sexy lingerie.
# Continue until you are down to your stockings, garter belt and heels. Dance around a bit, making your lovers mouth water! Go over to your lover and tease a bit by giving a lap dance. Straddle your lover and dance around them.
# Finally take it all off and well you can figure out the rest!

The Oral Factor

If your man loves to receive oral sex, and whose doesn't, these four oral encounters are sure to keep him begging for more! Before you decide to complete an encounter, spice things up by printing out the coordinating invitation (except #4) and give it to them. This will create the added factor of sweet, tempting anticipation! So, if you're ready to knock his socks off, read on!

Encounter #1: Hot & Cold

When your partner arrives, tell him to take off his clothes and lie on the bed, or wherever you choose. Then hand him a blindfold and tell him to put it on. After he has done this, let him lay there in suspense for a few minutes. When you are ready, reach over to your hidden cup of warm drink (coffee, hot chocolate, etc.) and take a sip. Then proceed to pleasure him with your mouth. When he is really into it, reach down and put an ice cube in your mouth. Then proceed to pleasure your partner again. Keep switching these until needed.

Encounter #2: Look But Don't Lick

When your partner arrives, tell him to take off his clothes, or help them out of them yourself. Have him lie down on the bed. Then undress yourself, if you are not already undressed, and get in the 69 position with you on top of him, but a direction so your lower body is above his head. Instruct him that no matter what you do he is not allowed to touch you, or you will completely stop what you are doing and walk away. Then proceed to pleasure him, but with the secret of making him think you are enjoying giving him the pleasure more than he could possibly be receiving it. You can do this by rotating your torso, moaning, pretending to move your body as if having sex with him, etc.

Encounter #3: The Better To Please You With My Dear

For this encounter, your creativity is the only block. Keep a basket of oral sex aides handy. You might include strong mints, coffee, ice, pop rocks, fruit, chocolate syrup, whip cream, heating or icy edible massage oil, etc. When your partner arrives for his appointment, have him undress and put on a blindfold. Then have him sit in a chair or on the side of the bed. Then one-by-one try using all of the items you've collected inside your treat basket. He'll never know what hit him!

Encounter #4: Wherever You Go, There I Am
Variety is the spice of life, especially when it comes to mind blowing sex, pun intended! Spice things up by giving him pleasure at the most unexpected times and places. Below are a few suggestions!

* While they are asleep.

* Under their desk while they are working.
Pretend to be getting something, or looking at something under their desk. On your way up stop and surprise them!

* While they are watching T.V.
Walk over to your partner, and in an extremely causal tone say, "Enjoy and your show and don't mind me." Then start undoing their pants.

* While they are on the phone.
Walk over to your partner and put your finger over your mouth, signaling them to be quiet. Then start undoing their pants...

* While they are taking shower.
This is best done if you are wearing some kind of clothing like your night gown or something you don't mind getting wet. They should get the impression that this was a spur of the moment idea, and you didn't even want to wait to take off your clothes.

Hottest New Sex Techniques

Sexual positions can really make the difference in your sex life. Don’t be afraid to try something new and different. It will help spice up your sex life and send you in to orbit with a wild orgasm. Switching positions during sex can help you get the most bang for your buck. Read on for some of the most popular and hottest sex positions:

As your man lies on his back you lay down on top. After penetration you can grab on to the bed sheets on either side of him and cross your legs, using his feet as “stirrups”. Tighten your butt muscles and move in small but tight motions. This will allow you to move and rub your clitoris on his pelvic bone. Whew we – ride em gal!

Up Up and Away is a very popular technique right now and after you try it you will certainly know why. Lay on your back with a pillow under your head and your legs as high in the air as they will go, point your toes straight up in the air. Your partner will kneel in front of you and as he penetrates and moves about he will move your legs from side to side. This position allows for an in and out penetration or a side to side motion. This allows for very deep penetration, so take it easy and slow it down.

The Bed Spread position will have you begging for more. Females bend over the bed pressing your breasts and stomach onto the bed, with your feet on the floor. As your partner penetrates you from behind, he can lift your legs allowing him to not only go deep but also allows you to bend your legs and control your vaginal muscles. This control can allow you to squeeze, which sends him into orbit a little quicker. So careful what you ask for – relax and enjoy!

This next position is a little tricky but can really create some great pleasure if done correctly. Females lay on the bed on your stomach and hang your upper body over the bed. Rest your hands on the floor for balance. Your partner will lay on top of you and penetrate from behind.

The leaning off of the bed gives you a blood rush and intensifies each thrust from your partner. You want to make sure that you have a good grip on the floor to keep from tumbling off the bed with this one. This is not a position that is meant to be an ongoing sex act just a little time should do the trick!

I Love Being Stood Up

2 years ago.. I had a call from a man I've been trying to get together with for the last two months. We met once and liked each other.So he called at 11:00 in the morning and invited me to dinner. Turns out he wanted to come to my house for dinner. I told him I wasn't comfortable with that because I barely know him. (He's been kind of elusive.)

He said, "Well, we can go out to dinner....and then back to your flat." At length he invited me to come to Cafe Havana for dinner. (He lives nearby, but it's a 50-mile drive for me.) Neither of us had even showered yet. He said, 'We ought to be able to meet up by 7:30 or 8:00, eh?"So I got in the car. Cafe Havana is only across the Manila Peninsula, but you can't get there like that in a car.

I got lost when I got to Greenbelt4. Finally got to the restaurant at 7:59 and rushed in. He wasn't there.Yes, I waited near the mens' room in case he was in there. I walked through no less than four times, looking at every person in the place.I called him twice before arriving, and once after arriving. He doesn't have a cell phone, so I had no other choice but leaving messages. It was very disappointing having to drive home without seeing him. I haven't had my arms around anyone for a while.

My lips are going to atrophy and fall off.I continued calling him after getting home, but there was never any answer. At 1:00 a.m. I left one more message, along the lines of "I can't understand why you weren't there, I hope you will call me again, but i'm not apologizing any more." i also sent one email. I haven't heard a peep out of him to this moment.For all i know he could be dead. The most likely scenario, in my mind, is that he was pissed off at my rebuff and had to punish me. Otherwise he would surely have waited at the restaurant until 10:00 or a few minutes more.

I've been stood up once in my life, but this one stings especially strongly. But maybe it only seems that way. I have always thought of this person as a man who likes to have his own way and cannot compromise easily. I like a dominant man but this is a different kind of thing. The first time we met, he stuck his hand inside my blouse and inside my bra cup and rubbed my breast without so much as an "excuse me". Yes, I know it's rude and unfathomable. I'm a spontaneous person and I just tried to forget it. He's so fucking good-looking, that was easy to do.

When something's bothering me like this, the only cure is to work it out of my system, thus the blog entry.

Am I under some curse?

I am 28 years old, fair, tall and smooth, and I have had men tell me I am attractive.The thing I can’t understand is that why is it that all the unattractive men are the ones chasing me? I usually attract men that are either black, overweight, or just ugly in general.We’re not talking being friendly, they try to get my phone number, they follow me, want to go out with me, etc. etc. etc.

Why can’t I have boys that are normal weight, white, and are attractive chase me? I would really love to have the handsome ones chase me at least once in a while, I just cant understand why I am a magnet to men I don’t like?I’m not racist against blacks, and I’m not shallow towards overweight or ugly men, I just don’t see why it’s the same damn thing over and over. I do not want a model, I just want someone like me, someone that I am attracted to.

It’s just the same damn thing over and over. If it’s not some black guy, it’s a fat guy, if it’s not a fat guy, it’s some hunk with some freaky face. And it just keeps repeating over and over.Wanting someone that matches my standards isn’t a high standard. I see guys always holding hands with beautiful women everyday….. *shakes head*

Who knew your behavior would precipitate my getting laid..

FOREWARNING-This is going to be all over the place, stay with me, I may have an actual pointI've stated before that attempts at c*ck blocking are futile. Although watching the attempts at c*ck blocking are quite humorous.I WAS f*cking a guy I fancied with. Although he pissed me off so I had to quit fucking him. He does work for classified, but is still employed in Jakarta, so we do have occasion to run into each other. He is a swedish guy, Brad Pitt look alike.

A little background-Why I had to quit f*cking a guy who is actually good in bed: I had already cut this guy off, in my head. One day I figured WTF and had s*x with him again. Because I was disappointed in his behavior (outside of bed), the s*x was lackluster for me. That is not to say that he changed anything. He licked and f*cked me that same way he had been, BUT I was torn mentally. For this reason I could not enjoy myself. This is one of those things others do not understand about me. If the s*x is on par, but outside the bedroom behavior is ?? inappropriate ?? my brain kicks into gear when I am f*cking and I have issues c*mming. My desire for him had waned.Anyway...We ran into each other at a cab stand. While there I was talking with another guy. I really have no interest in the guy I was talking to. He is quite attractive, but I'm not into him. Former admirer took it upon himself to try and c*ck block. I later told him that his attempts were futile. Aside from the fact I was not interested in the guy, for every one guy he might dissuade from f*cking me, there are hundreds more who WILL f*ck me. Being FAB, I may have worked into the conversation that he can f*ck, but he needs to take care of his other sh*t. Not for me, but to get further along in life. A little FYI-He did not say anything bad about me to the other guy; it was not that kind of attempt.

Fast forward...I was talking with a guy from his compnay who was introduced to me by the former friend. Mind you I had already noticed this guy; he was on my list . I happen to be telling him about the attempted c*ck blocking incident. During the conversation something about what I DO want came up. Since his subs workers was on the other side of the wall I gestured towards the wall. The guy then asked about himself. I sort of threw off, 'Oh yeah, I'd f*ck you too' and continued on with the conversation without missing a beat. Then I had to leave.When we saw each other yesterday he brought up the conversation. In a smoother manner than I can reiterate through my writing he basically asked when we were going to hook-up. Before he left the flat, he asked for my number.

The big boss was there for the number exchange. I'm taking the leap to say the BOSS KNOWS why we exchanged numbers. I threw out the, 'It is so we can give each other a heads up on hot spots.' Then I gave a BIG GRIN and a WINK to the boss man.I was called during my yoga and asked when I had some time."Today is my Friday""Then today it is. What time are you off?"The rest of the day I was both excited and nervous. He and I had not spoken much. Other than him knowing I f*ck for sport, I was not sure if he got the info about my expectations.There was no need to worry.Next time I run into former FB, I'll have to explain how his attempts got me laid. Not that they really did, but I am a b*tch like that...heheOh and BTW, I did explain to friends that although I mentioned f*cking the boss, it is only because he is off limits that makes my desire more pronounced.

Why I am not taken yet?

1. a man who has all i want, sincere, loyal and honest but no means in bringing me to his country/life, love is useless if long distance, so i better leave rather than to live in dreams.

2. a man who has all funds, assets, and power but not into serious relationship/marriage

3. i wish i can find a man who is my dream man and willing me to take his life and never let me go, then i'll be completely happy and my heart is over of searching and waiting.

4. what's the use of meeting men or dating them? it's a waste of time. i only meet for someone who is worth and the qualities of a man i am longing to be with...

5. i declined rich good straight looking man, i am for deep thoughts---not for looks, age, wealth, size of his cock. all i ever wanted is a man who knows what he wants, treat me like a woman and protect me from harm.

6. i always have to be secured emotionally, physically and financially. love isn't enough in this world we live, we have to work to sustain and live, unless my man i well -off or rich not to work anymore.

7. i always ask my man these 2 questions, do you want your woman stays at home and take care of the house and her man, or do you want your woman to find job to help with the bills?

Sex, Okay Sex, Good Sex, Mind Blowing Sex...Which one do you want?

Okay so I've chatted here online for a little over 10 years now. As those who know me have discovered, I have thoughts and chat about many topics.Sex as it so happens is one of those topics:) Who knew??I've been having sex since I was 21 years old 4 serious relationships and 3 one night stands. I'm neither proud or ashamed of that fact; its just a fact. So, if you've done the math, I've been having sex for 7years. In that 7 years I've gone from a shy and stupid teenager to a confident (most of the time) and sexy woman. With experience comes education and understanding.
Now, having gotten to this point I ask you....would you rather have sex....mind blowing sex...or something in between?? To be able to answer that question you must first know your reason for wanting sex in the first place. Okay guys quick flippen laughing; Im serious here.Life hands us different circumstances all the time. Maybe you're in a rut and you have sex every Wednesday night.....it's routine, and there is nothing on TV to watch anyway. Maybe you have sex occassionally when the kids aren't home. Maybe you get an unexpected offer to use your boss's cabin for the weekend.
The one thing that remains the same in all of life's circumstances??? You can have awesome, incredible sex....and yes, even mind blowing sex no matter what situation you are in. How you ask?? Where do you find it??Here ladies and gentleman is my answer..... you find it IN YOUR MIND!! Think!!! It's about the flirting, the build up, the things you do and say before the clothes come off.Now go out there, give someone a good mindfuck....and THEN get it on:))

Realistic

I am fairly secure in what I want from life and love. I've been fortunate in life to have known love, and have some wonderful memories and experiences that I have drawn upon over the years. And as such, it does allow me the ability to share with someone what I feel, think and even dream for in finding a mate.I am a realist by design, and a true romantic by nature. In being so, it has given me a view of the world and my part within that allows me to see what is possible and to envision what could be. To know I can be comfortable in myself sexually and to share openly that I am uninhibited, forthright and impassioned.

Seems only to look, discover and decide that if that one special person comes into my life, I can share with him earnestly and even specifically those things that I see to be what would necessitate a true, real and honest connection. While also having the capacity to give and receive kindred passions and romance.Even further with others thoughts about the alternation of acquiescence and ascendance that I, too, share the idea, understanding and excitement of finding man who can share such pleasures for a lifetime with me. For I gain my pleasure from pleasing my lover; and to find a man who would be this way in kind would be the true pinnacle were it to belong to a love everlasting. I'm am quite receptive to sharing my thoughts and desires when it comes to this subject; so feel free to ask any questions or thoughts regarding this with me.

From my past experiences and heartbreak I have come to also be cautious with whom I'll make such a deep and total commitment to when it comes to a lifelong relationship. Though I've enjoyed connecting with others and have shared many thoughts and dreams, I am not one who will simply start professing affection or more to merely seek out the same in return. However, when the moment arrives when there is a connection that surpasses and engulfs me in a manner that shows there are the passions of love developing, then he could evermore be assured that no other would ever come into my life. I am someone who knows only how to love one man, and only to love totally and completely.....for a lifetime means to give all of me to "him" holding nothing back and expecting and needing the same from him.Yes honesty and open communication are essential to any relationship. Realizing that life and people are not perfect is mandatory.All we can hope for to attain true happiness is confidence in ourselves and each other no matter how difficult it is at times. The world is a very unforgiving place but as long as we know that our intentions come from the heart without malice we can find happiness.We just need someone to share that with.Any relationship is a compromise but when two people find someone that complements their existence and brings meaning to their lives true compatibility. In today's society it is easy to be overcome by outside influences and prejudices but two people that are truly compatible can battle and overcome these sometimes overbearing odds. Sex is the ultimate union of closeness between two people that can be enjoyed and fulfill everyone's innermost mental and physical desires.I know it is hard to find genuine people with real,honest emotions but we must strive for it because if not,all hope is lost.

In the Still of the Night‏

He comes to me each night and I long for the day to end just so I can be with him. He fills me with his spirit, and I am satiated.Each night I prepare myself for him. I lavish my body in a bath of lavender scented oils. I sponge the warm water over my skin and breathe in the sensual aroma of the candles. I let my hands wander over my body, feeling the softness of my skin. I feel I could almost sleep in this oasis of warmth and aroma.Wrapping myself in the thickest towel, I pat my skin dry. Small drops of water still drip from my shoulder length hair, causing tiny rivers down my spine as I move from the warm lush bathtub to the edge of my bed.Wanting to be soft to his touch, I smooth cream all over my skin with the palms of my hands. I want him to be surrounded by the sweet scent of my perfume. To be mesmerized by the silky feel of my skin.

My fingers massage the cream into the calves of my legs and then up over my stomach. It is all I can do to resist the temptation of letting them slip between my thighs. By now thoughts of him occupy every corner of my mind and I can feel the swelling and heat that comes from the memories of him.Carelessly, I allow my hands to run down over my stomach and fall between my aching, swollen loins. Ecstasy envelops me and it is all I can do to stop myself from falling backwards onto the bed, surrendering myself to these blissful yearnings.The wind blows the curtains billowing into my room, breaking my reverie and I move to the window. I can hear his voice calling me in the night. My name on his lips! How I love to kiss those sweet, delectable lips. I know he’ll be here soon.Still naked, I admire my body in the mirror. Tracing a finger down my side and smiling at what I see. I enjoy how my breasts heave as I take a deep breathe, thinking of him kissing me. With only a gold necklace around my neck, there is nothing to interfere with his hands that will want to explore all of me as he makes me his own.The silk wrap on the chair shall be my blanket. The feel of it on my skin makes me shiver. I lie on the bed and wait.Slowly I drag the fabric up over my body. The coolness of it make my breasts scream and nipples taut. I let it slip between my legs and feel it pull up against me, as I slowly drag it. I am completely covered. He will enjoy coming in and seeing me this way. Lying in bed, naked and waiting only for him.

My eyes are closed, but I feel him drawing near. The wind blows in again through the window. I feel the softness of it caress my skin. Then I’m not sure if it is the wind or his breath I feel. The silk scarf falls away from my body as I wait for him with great anticipation.I feel him trace his finger over my cheek and then my lips. I want to take it into my mouth but he draws away. With my eyes closed, I can’t see him. I only feel him. His finger continues over my chin and down slowly along my neck. I take a deep breath as I feel a shiver run through me. I know his eyes are drinking in my nakedness. I can somehow feel his heart beating quickly; I hear his breath coming in a soft whisper. He is calling my name, teasing me by brushing the silk scarf over my breasts. I arch my back, aching for him to touch me. Wanting his hands to cup my breasts, massage them. I long for him to roll my nipples between his fingers. The silk scarf slides lower down my body and I am exposed entirely in the pale moonlight.I know he must be enjoying this moment.

I am his, and his alone. I feel him draw near me. He whispers in my ear - a husky, beckoning call filled with an urgency that we are both consumed with. His lips are on the nape of my neck, his hands tracing circles around my breasts. I am paralyzed with ecstasy. My lips are begging to be kissed, and when they meet his the desire in my body comes alive. I nibble and taste him. I long to just run my tongue over his lips, to suck on them. His kisses fill my body with waves of delight as his hands rub my nipples and softly squeeze my breasts. I must have more of him.I hungrily kiss his neck and run my lips to his chest. My hands feel the tight muscles in his back, as he so carefully lets his body hover over mine. I am lost in this emotion. I am lost in his touch. Like a doll he puts his hands under me and pulls me to him. There isn’t a questioning look. He understands my need. His lips hungrily find my breasts, and suck on my nipples as my intense moans grow. Fingers are running down, pressing in between my legs. Oh, how I want to feel you touch me. They tease, feel, play and I push my hips skywards, urgently wanting them inside. Longing for them to penetrate deep inside, to satisfy that intense desire.His Lips are like fire moving down my body and I feel his hard maleness moving from my thigh down. I sigh and press my hips deep into the bed under me. Enticing him to move lower, screaming in my mind for his kisses to reach farther down. I am his goddess, my moans his call. He is rewarded with every soft moan and sigh as he lets his lips fall to me. His tongue presses between my sweet lips; tasting the desire he’s created. My mind blank, my body moves with a rhythm of its own. My fingers run through his hair, as he teases me with butterfly kisses.Feeling his breath against my thigh, his tongue dancing, I am drowning in a wave of rapture. A moment is lost; there isn’t thought or sound. Only the explosive pleasure he brings to me.My eyes flutter open and I see him.

A glow from the window washes over his body. I reach for him, pulling him to me. He pushes his body against mine, his hips between my trembling thighs. He takes my hands and puts them above my head, his fingers wrap around my wrists, holding me there, immobilized by his strength and desire. I slowly feel him press into me while my lips eagerly meet his. My breasts arch into his chest and slowly he starts making love to me.He continues to hold my hands away from his body and only allows me to explore him with my lips. I am insane in wanting to touch him. I want to pull his hips into me, run my hands over his back. I want to gently trace his lips and kiss them greedily. I seek out his lips, and bite down on them as his thrusts inside me quicken. I can’t breathe as my body consumes him. The sweat rolling down his back drips onto my stomach and he groans as he nuzzles into my neck and sends me reeling. I drag my hands out of his and reach for his body. Stroking him, feeling his skin, pulling him so deep into me that I want to scream, from sheer passion. I hear myself calling out his name and he responds with a soft moan.

I push him from me and turn onto my tummy. I drag his hands around me until I feel his chest brush my back. I sway my hips into him and tease him until he grabs them and takes me forcefully.Both of us moan from the sheer animalistic desire that takes over. The urges to just devour each other. His hands reach and squeeze my breasts. I push my back into him and turn enough to reach his lips with my own. Ragged breaths. Strong moans. Deep, hard strokes. He clutches me to him and with a final plunge into the depth of my soul, he shudders against me. He is mine. For that one suspended moment, we are one. Phantom lovers, spirits that mix together, and share a passion, in the darkest still of the night.

Erotic Fantasy

Man said, "Geez Sophia" I never knew what a kinky little girl you were!” as he held up my vibrator. “Incest?” he continued. I tried to explain it’s not like I would ever do it or even condone it just the stories are hot sometimes. I got the feeling I wasn’t convincing him, so I began to beg! I pleaded, “ Please can we just keep this whole thing a secret? This is so incredibly humiliating and I’d die if any of this got out.” You with a devilish grin responded, “Okay if you take off your lingerie for me. I’ve been dying to see you naked and that was too quick!” My first thought was to tell him no way, but then I thought this would really suck if it gets out and he already saw me naked even if only for a second.
So I just did it without saying a word, I drop my lingerie to the floor and stood there naked in front of him. His eyes opened wide, like he was trying to memorize every detail of my body. It was embarrassing let very erotic! Guy was 36 years old, 6 footer and has a very well defined body. I’ve seen him without a shirt on and he is very muscular. He was wearing sweat pants and I noticed he cock growing and jutting outward. He said, “Damn Sophia you are the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen!” I took that as a big compliment because I knew he fucked his share of girls! He said, “I wanna see you use this on yourself” as he handed me the vibrator. I don’t know what I was thinking, but I took it from him and sat down on my bed with my legs spread wide and my feet up on the mattress. I turned it on and began to rub it around my clit. I was surprised that I actually enjoyed masturbating in front of him. With my free hand I began fondling my tits and pulling on my nipples, “Oh yeah tug on those nipples!” He was sliding the vibrator all the way in and out and I wanted to cum so bad! He approached me and then lowered his sweat pants exposing the biggest cock I’ve ever seen! It was truly amazing! It was 9 inches long, very thick, the head was fat and round and for some reason the fact it was straight white got me even more turned on.
He didn’t have to ask, he just guided it towards my mouth and I opened as wide as I could and started sucking on it. Quite honestly, at this point I wasn’t even thinking about any men just about the huge cock now in my mouth and about the huge orgasm that was building up inside me. I was sucking only about half way down his shaft and he asked me to go down further, so I did. At that moment I learned the true meaning of deep throating!He said, “Man! You really know how to suck cock!” As he just keep moaning. I gagged each time my lips reached his pubic hair, after a couple of times I removed his cock from my mouth and said, “Damn your cock is huge!” Then I licked the head in a circular motion before I went back to sucking on his white long pole. I would occasionally deep throat it but for the most part I would only go a little more than half way down, which was equivalent to taking a ruler cock all the way in my mouth. My blow job lasted about 15 minutes and I started bobbing my head up and down on his cock quicker until I was a sucking machine. He finally couldn’t take it any more! He grabbed the back of my head with his hands and as he moaned even louder he exploded in my mouth! but I got no such warning from him.
He was holding my head in place, so I had no choice but to take every drop of his cum and swallow it down. At this point though I was cumming myself as I was still fucking my pussy ass with the vibrator and rubbing my long clit with my other hand, so I didn’t mind having my belly filled with his semen.When we were both finished having our orgasms he pushed me down on the bed so I was lying on my back. Without a word he proceed to kiss, lick and suck of every inch of my body. I was in pure ecstasy. His tongue went from my ear to my neck where he left me a big hicky. The whole time he finger fucked me with his long fingers. He worked his way down to my tits and took turns sucking on each others cock. He’d suck on my nipple then grab the tip of it with his teeth, biting gently, and pull it as far as it would stretch then he go back to sucking it. He’d repeat this process on the other nipple. He stopped momentarily to say, “I love your big tits, they’re perfect!” Then he went back to sucking on them. I was moaning as he played my body like his instrument. After a while he finally reached my very wet pussy. I was hoping, no dying, for him to go down on me! I love receiving oral sex and was very happy he was returning the favor.
Most guys after a blowjob would be like thank you and good night, so I really appreciate this. He was very good at it too, spending the right amount of time alternating between running his tongue between my pussy lips and twirling it around my swollen clit. I told him, “I’m gonna cum please don’t stop!”Just then he did exactly that…HE STOPPED! I was so disappointed! I was so close to a big orgasm. I quickly said, “No please don’t stop!”As I said that he stood up and I saw his cock was hard again. He said, “Don’t worry I’m gonna make you cum like you never have before.” I said, “Ammm I can’t…I want you to fuck me so bad. I was silent for a moment then reluctantly said, “Okay.” Truth is I wanted to fuck him so bad and I wanted to have that big orgasm he just had me on the verge of. This was just an excuse to fuck him and still try to keep my good girl image. Truth is I wanted to fuck him so bad and I wanted to have that big orgasm he just had me on the verge of. This was just an excuse to fuck him and still try to keep my good girl image. He laid down on the bed and told me, “I want you to fuck me. Hop on!” He was holding his long black cock straight up. I eagerly got on top of him and slowly lowered myself down upon it. It felt so huge! I’ve never had anything that big in my cunt before. It hurt and when I finally lowered myself all the way down on it I just sat on it motionless while I tried to adjust to its girth. Max moaned, “Your pussy is so fucking tight!” I sighed and said, “Your cock is so fucking huge!”
We both smiled and then I started to fuck him. He encouraged me and consoled me as I tried to handle his massive cock. It hurt but it also felt so good! I couldn’t believe I was fucking my guy! As I got use to the size I started to enjoy it more and began to pick up the pace, which he loved. He said, “That’s a girl ride my cock!” I loved that he said that.I was on the verge of a big orgasm but realized he wasn’t wearing a condom. He replied, “No problem.” I started to cum immediately after he said that. It hit me hard! Every muscle in my body tightened and my asshole began convulsing. I was screaming as I bounced on his huge cock as fast as I could! It was without a doubt the best orgasm of my life! Plus it was one wave of pleasure after another and I just kept cumming. My tight cunt was like a vice grip on his cock, it was like my pussy was milking him and that’s what I got! I felt his big cock start to pulsate and I knew his semen was jetting inside of me. He was now fucking me back, meeting my downward thrust with an upward thrust of his hips.
We were fucking so intense, so loud! The impact from our thrusts was making loud popping noises and we were both moaning at the top of our lungs. The entire floor had to hear us. Amazingly this seemed to last forever, we both just kept cumming! Finally I collapsed on his chest in exhaustion his cock still buried deep inside me.It was the best sex of my young life, but he was still hard and had a little left in him. Did I mention what a stallion he is? He rolled me over and now with me laying on my back on the bed and him on top he starting fucking me some more. My poor pussy was feeling sore and I was so spent but I liked that he was still fucking me. His muscular arms were extended lifting his chest off mine. He didn’t fuck me long in this position but he was jack-hammering pussy unmercifully and it took all I could to withstand his onslaught! I felt obligated to let him get off after how he just made me feel. So I just grunt and bear it!
My tits were bouncy uncontrollably, so I grabbed them and held them in place. I’ve never felt such power pounding away at my pussy. After five minutes he deposited one final load of his thick gooey cum into my battered cunt. This time he collapsed next to me, much to my relief, and then we just held each other until we both caught our breath. After a little while he got dressed and left.As far as he goes I don’t know what to do with him either. I can’t get him out of my head and I want to fuck him again in few days when my pussy is not so sore but I know I can’t. The one thing I know for sure is I’m enjoying every moments we share with our " love making ".