Lucid dreaming - Dreams of clarity

It was a lucid dream, as I kept telling myself that I shouldn't worry.
I was very tired and drank from New Year's Eve 2010 celebration, I hit my sack right when I came in to my door. After few seconds, I heard someone calling my name, trying to wake me, so I wasn't sure if my eyes were widely opened, or maybe half awake-half asleep, but one thing I know she's in front of my bed, just near the door, a woman with a long wedding dress, but " faceless", she appears to me many times as I keep myself fighting to go back to sleeping..so I prayed instead.

Bride

To see a bride in your dream, symbolizes a union or partnership. meanings by
To dream that the bride is shot at her wedding, suggests that a feminine aspect of yourself has come to an abrupt end.
If you are single and dream that you are a bride, represents your desires for marriage. Alternatively, it may represent the most feminine qualities about yourself. The dream may also symbolize purity and virginal qualities.

Faceless

To see a faceless figure or person in your dream, indicates that you are still searching for your own identity and finding out who you are. Perhaps you are unsure of how to read people and their emotions. And therefore are expressing a desire to know and understand these people in a deeper level.


Woman

To see a woman in your dream, represents nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love. It refers to your own female aspects or may also represent your mother. Alternatively, it may indicate temptation and guilt. If you know the woman, then it may symbolize the concerns and feelings you have about her.
To see an old woman in your dream, indicates your concerns about aging and growing old. Alternatively, the old woman may be an archetypal figure to symbolize feminine power.
To see a group of women talking in your dream, refers to some gossip.
To see a pregnant women in your dream, symbolizes abundant wealth.


Wedding Dress

To wear a wedding dress in your dream, indicates that you are evaluating and assessing your personal relationship.
To see someone else wearing a wedding dress, suggests that you are feeling inferior or unworthy.

I couldn't just forget it as every time as I have dreams like this, I normally seek an interpretation so I be relax, until I found in dreammoods.com. I am not sure if this all true, but I admit I search marriage for 8 years but I failed so when I face 2009 I have decided to forget my illusions and I don't believe in it anymore, if two people are in-love they not marry for a paper, they marry their hearts..but it would be wonderful to marry ' both".

Now I know myself, even how many times I try to lie to myself, I don't want to get married but I know in my heart I will have it soon, maybe 2010 is my year of Love, GIGGLES!

Their description of me made me sound like an arrogant

I am a free spirit, I am the daring, I am the utterly gorgeous... Many epithets have been used to describe my vivacious, lusty, full-bodied and bodacious woman. There's now a lot that's happening for me but when I sit down to reflect, I see myself as a "girl next door with big dreams". "Very big dreams," I say, continuing, "I believe in the Almighty God who is able to do exceedingly and abundantly far more and above what I can ever dare to hope, ask or dream. I think of myself as competent enough to compete with the best." I admit to a past I'd like to put behind. "Earlier, I lived in the world of mediocrity.

But today, I value excellence and choose to associate with people who pursue it." And while I am building my body of work, there has been talk as well about body. To be specific, my breasts and butt. I am very outspoken about my body, and the decision to get them surgically enhanced must have been a tough one. "Earlier, I felt like a boy. Not any more. Thanks to silicon implants. I speak about my breasts and butt only upon being asked. I find 'No Comments' a very uninteresting way to respond to a question."

Counseling Psychologist:

That's right, Sophia is nothing if not outspoken. This, coming from a woman who once said, 'Arrogance in moderation does wonders to one's personality'. "Yes, arrogance in moderation can help an individual become super-confident. The apprehensions, doubts and fears tend to take a backseat," continues Miss Super-Confident whose positive mantras and where you will also find exclusive pictures, videos and blogs by Sophia. Since it's clear that Internet is the way of the future, she has entered into a huge exposure. "It's a great honour! With most transsexuals and women shedding their inhibitions, there is a lot of competition on the Internet and Real World. And I love it. It compels me to redefine excellence," she says.

Beyond sweetness and light, Sophia confirms that as before, she will never hesitate to flaunt the raunch. "As long as my body is beautiful and well-toned, I would love to flaunt my curves whether or not the critic demands. I love my detractors. They provoke me to pursue what seems impossible in the natural realm. I don't want them to change.

Do you really want me to," she asks, rhetorically.
The bold, beautiful and sexy Sophia Alexandra in " The Many-Splendored faces".

My First New Years Resolution- QUIT SMOKING!

I was never big on making New Years Resolutions. This is the only one I will ever make because it's the only one I need to keep. Making a New Years resolution to quit smoking is like making a resolution to live. That's what I want for New Years. I want to live!

I can remember being younger and out on New Years Eve and the subject of resolutions would always come up. It was usually less spending or get a better job or maybe not drink so much and of course that's after you're on your 6th Jack and Daniels. This is really important to me and real. It's a very real resolution.

I am preparing myself for this quit. I make lists, I start cleaning anything that might remind me the slightest bit of smoke and rearrange or redecorate it if possible. My flat is non-smoking but we have this "Smoky Room" where we can smoke freely. Last time I quit I completely emptied it out, kept it and rearranging decorations. I'll need to do that again even though I've only been back smoking a few months. It doesn't take long to get back into the same old habits. It feels like I never even quit.

It's important for me to remember that no matter how long I stop smoking all I have to do is take that first puff and it could be all over. I could be back smoking for another 28 years and it will kill me for sure. This time I will never take one puff.

My last ex-boyfriend John is a non-smoker, 100% there for me when he reminds me to quit. He doesn't smoke that I can't see him or smell it. I think that, in turn, makes me smoke less. He hopes me to quit some day and he will be happy when I am ready. I'm ready now.

Every time I light a cigarette it's like a feeling of something slowly sucking the life out of me and I'm letting it happen. I'm making it happen. I ask myself, why would anyone do this to themselves, FOR 28 YEARS!!! What do I get out of it??? Death?

It's time to move on. It's time to be healthy and enjoy my life. That's only going to happen when I quit smoking.

I'm ready for whatever that takes.